My friend and I are poles apart, but there’s still one thing we have in common – we want to change the world. Over-ambitious? Yes, I totally agree. But when the weather’s just right and you are hanging out with a friend at your favourite coffee place, everything seems rosy. Even the impossibility of a situation fails to break through the bubble that you surround yourself with.
Well, that’s until the toothpick of reality decided to get to work.
Being there for a friend who lost her pet to leaving candies for a stranger I’ll never meet again, life has more meaning when you live not just for yourself. But the same meaningful life gets tiring when it’s all about giving giving giving… with nothing to take back from it.
No matter what you do, no how matter HOW much you do, it just seems insignificant in front of what others before you have already done. Change the world? Well, Martin Luther King, Jr did. Bring about a revolution? Uh-oh! Billy Graham beat you to it. Be a writer that stirs people’s hearts? I am not even going to start with this list.
What do you do when your efforts, well, they just seems like efforts with no depth to them? When it hits you home that no matter how hard you try, no matter how much you try to love, give or help, nobody seems to care.
When that happens to you, you remember these words: five loaves and two fish.
As evening approached, the disciples came to him and said, “This is a remote place, and it’s already getting late. Send the crowds away, so they can go to the villages and buy themselves some food.”
Jesus replied, “They do not need to go away. You give them something to eat.” “We have here only five loaves of bread and two fish,” they answered.
“Bring them here to me,” he said. And he directed the people to sit down on the grass. Taking the five loaves and the two fish and looking up to heaven, he gave thanks and broke the loaves. Then he gave them to the disciples, and the disciples gave them to the people. They all ate and were satisfied, and the disciples picked up twelve basketfuls of broken pieces that were left over. The number of those who ate was about five thousand men, besides women and children.
(Mathew 14: 15-21)
Your efforts might seem futile, but when you give them to Him, they bloom like the flowers in the springtime. So no matter what you are doing, bring them to Him. Five loaves and two fishes; even though that’s how I look at my work – most of the time – for Jesus, it’s more than enough. And I think, I am getting used to the idea.