The tagline ‘nothing is what it seems’ doesn’t just apply to the popular TV show you grew up watching. It applies to you, too, even though your life might not seem as magical as the fictional characters you so adored. So when you mop around because things aren’t working out the way you wanted… I have a solution that someone thousands of years ago put to use.
You had a dream and you are troubled. It wasn’t a nightmare but doing what it signifies is surely one. It’ll be a roller-coaster ride, but if it doesn’t work out it’ll be very depressing and heart-breaking. It’s scary when you don’t know whether what you feel strongly for is the right thing to do. Feelings have a tricky way of clouding your judgment where a ‘leap of faith’ can in actuality mean ‘let’s go leap into the fire, hooray!’ But if you listen to what a king named Jehoshaphat did, you will find hope. He was tormented by demons that seem to be tormenting you.
Your health is deteriorating and this might just be the last nail is your glum looking coffin. You fear you are going to lose your vision, but I know you are just spazzing out. It won’t happen, but fear can be a hard thing to defeat. You are alarmed; you call up a friend and tell her about it. She manages to calms you, only till the time when you are left alone with the fear that refuses to let go.
Then there is this guy whom you like… since how many years? Two or is going to be three? Well, that’s not the point. You feel he might just be ‘The One’ and “thankfully he knows I exist”. You don’t want to make the first move because what if that is the wrong thing to do? You tried to make things happen before and it didn’t go down well. “If it’s bound to happen it will happen” knowing full well that ‘a ship in the harbor is safe, but that’s not what ships are built for’.
To do or not to do, once again it’s a rotten thing to be at such a place. Even Robert Frost with his ‘road less traveled’ philosophy fails to make any sense. So what to do what to do? Do you want to listen to what that king, with a long and hard to pronounce name, did?
Here’s how it goes:
After this, the Moabites and Ammonites with some of the Meunites came to wage war against Jehoshaphat.
Some people came and told Jehoshaphat, “A vast army is coming against you from Edom, from the other side of the Dead Sea. It is already in Hazezon Tamar” (that is, En Gedi). Alarmed, Jehoshaphat resolved to inquire of the Lord, and he proclaimed a fast for all Judah. The people of Judah came together to seek help from the Lord; indeed, they came from every town in Judah to seek him.
(2 Chronicles 20 1-4)
King Jehoshaphat was in a pretty messed up state too. While you might not be facing an army of people hungry for your blood, but what you are facing… doesn’t it feel very much like that? He got together with his people, fasted and prayed. When he was done, this is how God replied:
Then the Spirit of the Lord came on Jahaziel son of Zechariah, the son of Benaiah, the son of Jeiel, the son of Mattaniah, a Levite and descendant of Asaph, as he stood in the assembly.
He said: “Listen, King Jehoshaphat and all who live in Judah and Jerusalem! This is what the Lord says to you: ‘Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God’s. You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you, Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you.’”
(2 Chronicles 20 14-17)
I think the solution that I have been hinting at is this: Just for today: Be a prayer warrior–not a panicked worrier (Ann Voskmap). When the thoughts about the boy bother you, pray; whether or not you should do what the dream is pointing you towards, pray; when your eyes threaten to be as weak your heart… pray!
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