My big-fat bank balance

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“What phase do you think you are in right now?” 

 

 

My friend asked in-between my horrific realization that the Spanish omelet I had ordered contained salami, whereas she happened to be a vegetarian, even though she seemed okay with the egg part – there are so many vegetarians who eat egg, I have never been able to understand how that works.

 

 

She continued, “You seem so content where you are at right now; I bet if you get a job offer from some crazy big company, you still won’t quit where you are currently working.”

 

 

Yes to the first part, a big no to the latter. I am content, content working at a place for more than three years – honestly, my work is the most stable relationship I have ever had in the longest time, ha ha!

 

 

“I want to relocate, work in another country… I want to give it my best shot; I don’t want to regret later on that I didn’t push myself just because coming home early and reading a book was one of my top priorities,” she finally said.

 

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So back to answering her question… Hmm, what place am I in right now?

 

 

The one that includes dreaming big but still “being happy with the little things”; like waking up and saying out loud what an amazing morning it is. Not just living but thriving; not just being friends with someone, but investing in their lives. Not just wading through life in a daze, but make something out of it.

 

 

I remember talking to someone at work a while ago and telling them how we all are such good friends, but we rarely know what is going on in each other’s lives, what are our dreams, crazy school memories, darkest secrets… We talk to each other at work, but we don’t spend a lot of time really getting to know each other. But the times we do, like go out on a dinner date or just hang out at a coffee shop, we talk and we listen and it feels wonderful. It always does even though I don’t get paid to do that, even though I am not going to get anything out of it, it just feels wonderful.

 

 

It’s like depositing money at the bank. It’ll remain what it is until I do something with it like invest in some scheme because then alone can it multiply.

 

 

 

“Again, it will be like a man going on a journey, who called his servants and entrusted his wealth to them. To one he gave five bags of gold, to another two bags, and to another one bag, each according to his ability. Then he went on his journey. The man who had received five bags of gold went at once and put his money to work and gained five bags more. So also, the one with two bags of gold gained two more. But the man who had received one bag went off, dug a hole in the ground and hid his master’s money.

 

“After a long time the master of those servants returned and settled accounts with them. The man who had received five bags of gold brought the other five. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘you entrusted me with five bags of gold. See, I have gained five more.’

 

“His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’

 

“The man with two bags of gold also came. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘you entrusted me with two bags of gold; see, I have gained two more.’

 

“His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’

 

“Then the man who had received one bag of gold came. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. So I was afraid and went out and hid your gold in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.’

 

“His master replied, ‘You wicked, lazy servant! So you knew that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? Well then, you should have put my money on deposit with the bankers, so that when I returned I would have received it back with interest.

 

(Matthew 25:14-27)

 

 

 

I know our time is short and there is a lot to be done and that big mountain to be scaled; I know it because I am always running around getting things done as I don’t want to be left behind either. It’s a rat race, but let’s not forget that even if we win it, we’ll still be a rat.

 

 

And this realisation is what makes me want to stop, smell the roses and be content. Because, honestly, if this is how bad being content looks like, then I am all for it.

 

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